Ah, finally where everyone else is. Except for the whole breathing and meditation thing. Which is exactly where I was last year. I’m actually getting to a really painful part of where I was in Spiritual Nomad last year. Week Three, at least when I was doing it, is precisely when my favorite cat turned out to be dying very unexpectedly, and it just broke my heart into tiny little pieces. I’m still pretty shattered about it. I adored that cat, and thinking about his death still sends me into freshets of tears. *pauses for a tissue* Consequently, I didn’t do anything of spiritual significance after he died: I didn’t have much to thank God for right then. She’d taken one of my best friends from me when I thought he’d be around for a few more years.
Before that happened, though, I got started on one of my favorite projects of Spiritual Nomad: the journey book, a collection of spiritually significant quotes and images. I latched onto that project and didn’t let go for quite some time, greedily collecting images from all over the internet and my own collection of graphics collected over the years. I had a book of wonderful quotes from one of my favorite magazines, The Sun, and spent quite a bit of time with my colored pens putting together a really lovely book. I filled the first one quickly and went on to partially fill a second. I filled a third with images of the Buddha and Hindu deities. I even tried my hand at actual scrapbooking and made a few more much more formal pages centered around images of deities or representations thereof, but that was really complicated so it didn’t go very far (scrapbooking is an incredibly time and space-consuming hobby).
The other major focus of this week’s module is prayer. I always conceived of prayer in the Christian sense: kneeling, hands together, saying “Dear God, etc…”, which didn’t resonate with me at all (probably because I’m not Christian). It never occurred to me to think of other things as prayer, such as singing, or dancing, or even cooking. Seen from that perspective, I saw that I engaged in a great deal of prayer: music, cooking, baking, learning, doing art, gardening, doing karate and yoga, and perhaps most importantly, by doing nothing at all. By clearing my mental space of distraction, I make room for God, which to me is a form of prayer. Done with appropriate intention, anything can become an act of prayer. One’s whole life can become a divine act.
There were questions that went with this week’s module, but they weren’t really applicable to me. Since they mostly had to do with what spiritual books were inspiring to me and I couldn’t think of any, maybe I ought to do a little more reading. My bookshelves are packed with a myriad of spiritual, philosophical, and metaphysical books that I thought looked interesting at the used bookstore, but never bothered to actually read. I’m bad that way. I could probably read new-to-me books for a couple of years or more and never visit a library or bookstore. So I think I’ll put reading up with meditation on my list of important spiritual things to do. Hey, at least I’ve been going to yoga more often: it’s a start.